story about prayer

so, I had been struggling with the issue of prayer for a couple of months. The fact of the matter was...I didn't believe prayer changed things. I believed God had a plan and that plan would come to happen whether I wanted it to or not. The only thing I could ask from God was the ability to deal with the situation given to me. This conclusion was reached after a number of events in my life where things I had prayed for just didn't come to pass the way I wanted them to so I had given up on thinking prayer changed things.
But I started feeling really discouraged. God didn't really listen to me, I felt so powerless and vulnerable. But, maybe I was misinterpreting all those passages in the bible that talked about the power of prayer. Maybe the reason I felt my life was in shambles was that I wasn't being bold in prayer and was missing out on all these blessings God had in store for me. more importantly, I was scared God didn't appreciate my questions and was disappointed in my lack of faith.
Anways, so....life went on this way for some time until two weeks ago when I was feeling super stressed about planning camp. We didn't have a speaker and still needed 18 counsellors and I was just so anxious. I don't usually show how worried I am but started to not be able to sleep and just nothing being able to do anything but pray for help because I knew I couldn't do it on my own. I was just getting rejected left, right and center and I was just so tired of having doors shut in my face. There was nothing left that I could do on my own and it was like this instinctive reflex to ask god to take control even when I had spent the past few months telling myself it would never work.
So, I went to church on Sunday and talked to a few people on speaking up at camp. They were polite, seemed interested but very non-commital. Througout the service, I started feeling nervous again. I decided to ask the pastor's wife if she knew of any available women to recommend as a speaker to me. She took one look at me and told me she would like to pray with me. As soon as she finished praying, Im not kidding you, one lady who I had briefly talked to before the service, came up to me and told me that throughout the service, God had been speaking to her and telling her that she should take this opportunity!Not only did God answer my prayer but he did it at the speed of light.

Thank you God for being faithful to me even when I question if you really do have things under control. I am so weak and imperfect but you remind me that it is all about you. Thank you.