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im tired.
i feel that ive been tired for the last two years. i want to go on a long hiatus....somewhere with water...and palm trees...and birds singing....and sun....and bongoes and endless time.

i wish my family would undersatnd me.
i wish i had a good enough voice and good enough skill in bass/guitar/piano to play climatic music for a living.
i wish i was inspired enough to make a difference.
i wish my heart would stop breaking and would become stone-cold.
i wish turning 20 was not scary.

i just wish.....

soul meets body

dry coughs suck. its a form of public torture too especially if you're in an enclosed space ie the BUS as you see people disgustedly shrink away from you as you cough up a storm. and the worst part is there's nothing to cough up but you're body is just racked with the urge to hack away for a good chunk of time loud enough so everyone in the bus is aware of who they should stay away from. and just when you think its over...it starts again...ugh

so i went to a cmap meeting last night and met with the 'leadership team'. its kind of intimidating since they're all camp people who have been to camp for eons and eons but they all seem pretty sweet and pumped up. im helping out with activities/program and hopefully playing bass - my 2 most favourite things to do at camp :D

today i went to aaron beckingham's baptism. it was sweet and his parents are some of the most nicest people ive met. i enjoyed going there today.

im tired and i haveto write a psych paper on motivation vs punishment in babies-teen by tonight. Also my dad is dragging me and my brother to some wedding of his client. its a sikh wedding which will be quite interesting with all that singing, dancing and bling-bling that ive seen on tv - lets not forget the food either.

ive been on for new music and some death cab for cutie songs found itself into my heart. 'soul meets body' is a heavenly song.

ciao.

Music: soul meets body - death cab for cutie

cell phone back on

i have a phone again thanks to my dear friend eric :)

silly sue moment: i get to ubc today and somehow convince myself i arrived one hour earlier than needed so i mosy around the bookstore. I realize only when class was almost done that this was sadly not the case and run like the wind to class to catch her final words.. silly sue - what a waste of time.

But i also ran into a guy from high school who i hadnt seen for 3 years. would have totally passed him by if he didnt stop me. that was the highlight of my day along with kicking ass on a psych exam that i shouldnt have. the lowlight of my day will be the current all-nighter that i must endure to write a bio paper that bores me to tears.

i cant believe school is almost done.
freedom....i can almost taste you.

CoLdPLaY iS My CliMaTiC uToPiA

IM GOING TO SEE COLDPLAY!! ---> this is an estactically happy thought and i cant wait to see them. (if interested, they play at GM place on jan 26th - woooo)

this week was not bad. im still super behind in everything and hopefully this weekend will be productive in chem and bio craziness.

I talked to kim in nz and that was sweet. i miss her and our random fun so. i cant wait for her to come visit and maybe take me to New Zealand hidden in her suitcase.
Im thinking of going up to camp for New Years. This will be definetly something new and hopefully ill get to bass it up. We have more staff than kids i hear but im sure that will change. im actually super excited the more i think about it.

Man, i cant wait till December. though my exam schedule sucks ass, i just cant wait to have time: time to sit by my window and watch the rain fall on the leaves, time to play piano/guitar and bass everyday (and maybe pick up the bongoes), time to experiment and cook deluctable delights, time to sketch my abstract thoughts, time to learn how to hacky-sack, time to write songs, time to learn how to juggle, time to play badminton.....
don't you ever wish you could stop time - if i ever meet a genie, i would ask him for an infinete supply of wishes and when he sighs and refuses id ask him for the ablity to stop time.
Its my birthday soon too even though birthdays tend to be extremely over-rated the older you get. ive been considering splurging and getting myself a birthday present: its a toss-up between piercing my tongue or investing in bongoes. its a hard choice - they're both the same price and ive wanted both for ages. we'll see.

im excited for tomorow: time at the wong household - always makes me smile.

Music: X & Y - Coldplay
PS: happy birthday eric :)

this sucks

Im very tired of life at this moment. this sucks.