and i will try....to fix you

this week was emotionally draining. In general, i run from confrontation - i would rather push it under the rug and hope it goes away but i guess that ends up hurting people anyways because i ignore them for long periods of time till i figure they've learned their lesson - invariably never happens.
But last sunday, i had words with a 'friend' who said hurtful things which cuased me great discomfort. ANd the worse part was i apologized when i really should have stood my ground. I couldnt go to bed that night and finally wrote him a letter - a long letter - being blunt and maybe hurtful too. blah blah. turned out that it ended up okay in the end as we were able to talk about it and it wasnt tense or awkward like i expected. maybe this is a good learning experience for me.
Also, i had to deliver the awkward news of my parents splitting up in october this week to unsuspecting friends which was made awkwarder by the fact that people are only finding 0ut this week and i haveto be the sole bearer of this news to everyone.
I just hate dealing with the questions, the what ifs and the breakdowns that invariably happen as i haveto relive it everytime i tell someone. I do say, i am becoming pretty efficent and cold hearted while delievring the news. ive gone from crying to sitting down the person opposite me....putting their guard down by talking about the weather, and then nonchanlantly remarking ' i expect you've heard about my parents' and most have by now since little birdies talk to them..and then following it up with a 'yea, i guess things happen for a reason' The End.
Oi, its hard and there are still so many people left to tell and i just feel this expectation that they need to see me greieving and help me through it but we're already past it and am moving on. more than anything we need you to treat us the same as the one thing i dread is awkwardness so please move along with us.

Anways, to funer things of life: kim came down to vancouver and i got to hang out a few days. It was like nothing had changed and she brought me happiness for a brief time. She is currently on a month tour of Thailand where she will backpack using her bush woman skills and be pampered to the fullest. Also, she showed me the nz tradition of eating Tim Tams and i will impart this knowledge with you in hopes of bettering your culinary education in case you're ever in nz and someone whips out a tim tam for your pleasure.

Tim Tams must be eaten with hot chocolate or Tea.
1)Bite the two opposite ends of a Tim Tam from top to bottom
2)Cover top hole with mouth and lower Tim Tam into hot beverage wetting the bottom qarter of it
3) Suck air from hole until you taste hot beverage coming out of it
4) Immediately place Tim Tam in mouth enjoying the gooey mass it has become.

So there, try it if you have a relative in new zealand that loves you so much they're willling to ship you a packet of tim tams.

ALSO, COLDPLAY IN 3 DAYS - im not as excited as i should be but i think my friends make up in estatic anticipation for me. i want to set my expectations low enough to be absolutley blown away into another hemisphere. AND going to see IMR on saturday. ahh what perfectness.

To end, thanks to the people who showed us you care. it means everything to me.